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Pain.
How can I say what I feel? these feelings are like nothing I have ever felt. We met by chance, and yet if I did go to the same school, would you have seen me then? The BIG guy everyone hated, pushed, and pick on. When I began to only feel hate, and would release my pain onto someone, anyone. would you have talked to me. I just wanted the pain to stop, and was will to do anything to stop it, but the will to live, and the hope that something was out there...pulled a shotgun out of my mouth. I found God, and He promised to love me, help me, and give me a peace that is set deep in the soul. But would you have believed me. would you have seen through the eyes of the monstar, and into the eyes of the human being that was lost in the suffering that the world had pushed onto me. Though I got my peace, and love. I still have the memory of that pain, and I battle it everyday.

which would you have seen?
the monstar, or the person.

How can I tell you how I feel, when the feeling is something no human being has ever given freely.