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I came across something interesting while reading Hana Kimi 10... (I altered some of the words to make it fit...)

But you know, I just wasn't good enough for him. There's a void inside of his heart. It probably has to do something with his childhood, but... he's not capable of trusting anyone completely. On the outside he seems so easygoing and social, but there's a part deep inside of him that he never allows anybody to get close to. I don't think he's even aware of it... I really loved him. He made me feel so special... ...But in the end, I just wasn't able to fill that void. Even when two people are in love... There are times when their "internal signals" just aren't on the same wavelength. Sometimes you're better off apart.

Somehow, songs, books and manga are able to convey the things that I wish to convey in such a beautiful manner.

EDIT: I've... come across an interesting... epiphany... Perhaps... this was just like all those other times... In the end, I wasn't right for him... I couldn't fit with him, like a puzzle piece... Granted, there were the similarities that weren't present in my previous crushes but... I guess... this one... it was missing something even more than that... That'll be a thought for later... I realize that I've been a selfish person, especially to him. I never really did things for him... Like he did for me... ... Why am I such a horrible person? *sighs* I never really can do anything right... Not for my family, not for my friends, not even for the guy who meant so much to me... I'm useless...