My curiosity,
Is very much like a wildfire:
The more thought it consumes,
The larger and hungrier it becomes.
And as it grows larger,
The harder it is to surpress it.
And the only way to kill it,
Is satisfaction.
For a majority of my life,
My curiosities were small, yet numerous.
And the only reason they did not grow out of my control,
Was because they were quickly given answers.
Usually, my curiosity will settle
If I give it a direct answer,
If I shed my interest of the topic,
Or if I comprimise, and make an inteligent guess.
But there is one curiosity that has been burning,
Burning since it's manisfestation,
And when it demanded an answer,
I gave multiple comprimises in directness' stead.
But it won't accept a comprimise,
It demands a direct answer, a direct satisfaction,
And it has been growing hungrier even now,
After four years of burning.
My curiosity has grown to a point,
Where it turns into maddening temptation.
And this temptation breaths down my neck,
Every time I see her.
And the worst part?
My dark side is in the favor of my curiosity's impatience.
He makes me realize how easy it would be,
To just TAKE my answer, and destroy my curiosity, my temptation.
But I dont want to,
I dont want to hurt her,
I dont want to use her,
I dont want her to hate me...
So I endure,
For her sake.
But I can feel it inside me,
The alliance forged between my temptation and my demon,
They are trying to take control of me, they are trying to hurt her.
And I cant let that happen, WONT let it happen.
Even if I must destroy myself in the process,
I will protect her with everything I have.
Is very much like a wildfire:
The more thought it consumes,
The larger and hungrier it becomes.
And as it grows larger,
The harder it is to surpress it.
And the only way to kill it,
Is satisfaction.
For a majority of my life,
My curiosities were small, yet numerous.
And the only reason they did not grow out of my control,
Was because they were quickly given answers.
Usually, my curiosity will settle
If I give it a direct answer,
If I shed my interest of the topic,
Or if I comprimise, and make an inteligent guess.
But there is one curiosity that has been burning,
Burning since it's manisfestation,
And when it demanded an answer,
I gave multiple comprimises in directness' stead.
But it won't accept a comprimise,
It demands a direct answer, a direct satisfaction,
And it has been growing hungrier even now,
After four years of burning.
My curiosity has grown to a point,
Where it turns into maddening temptation.
And this temptation breaths down my neck,
Every time I see her.
And the worst part?
My dark side is in the favor of my curiosity's impatience.
He makes me realize how easy it would be,
To just TAKE my answer, and destroy my curiosity, my temptation.
But I dont want to,
I dont want to hurt her,
I dont want to use her,
I dont want her to hate me...
So I endure,
For her sake.
But I can feel it inside me,
The alliance forged between my temptation and my demon,
They are trying to take control of me, they are trying to hurt her.
And I cant let that happen, WONT let it happen.
Even if I must destroy myself in the process,
I will protect her with everything I have.
