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I found it disturbing,
Destroying my deepest connection,
Severing it from my soul,
Annihilating it altogether.

I found it disturbing,
Letting her go,
Forgetting everything,
Moving on.

I found it disturbing,
How it didnt hurt,
How my body didnt reject the thought,
How I survived.

I find it disturbing,
How I can look at her, and not melt,
How I can hear her, and not break down,
How I can imagine touching her, and it is no longer intimate.

I find it disturbing,
The way everything feels new,
How I am no longer a slave to a lost cause,
How I cant feel what I once did anymore.

I find it disturbing...
How easy it was...

I find it disturbing,
How it is starting all over again,
How past experiences seem to be repeating in different ways,
How this time, SHE likes ME.

I find it disturbing,
How when this time I said "yes",
I didnt have a thought in my head it wouldnt work,
And how I noticed that I like HER back.

I find it disturbing,
How I have yet another reason for living again,
And how I compleatly and irrevocably
Love it.