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	tired.. so tired
	tired.. so tired


Ive been sick for a while and im not sure what to do... i dont even know if my mother cares anymore and im just soo tired... I started to cough up blood a little.. which worries me but oh well.. my mom just sighed and said ill get you into a docter soon... i know she wont.. in the end it will be a fight and ill feel like crap and wish i never went to tthe damn docter.... Im still quite lonely and the last person i wanted to go out with which was recently Sean but now isnt. well i cant go out with him at all... His mother doesnt like me and basically told me that i wasnt worthy of her son cause im not a vergin and well that hurts and me being a self hating type started thinking about what she said and realized that alot of things she was saying was.. well true.. so i got hurt pretty damn bad.. there was also a small fight i had with my ex which in the end i felt like crap and still do... Lets see what else to say? hmmm well i want to leave this damn world.. its soo soo boring.... so tiring... and im not sure what to do.. im really tired of thinking things such as im useless and well some friends and most my family doesnt help me.. i feel like crap.. im tired... I cant remeber what else i was going to say.. origanlly this entry was supose to be of something else but i cant remeber what i wanted to write about anymore... anyways.. ending rant Ishira Tsubasa · Wed Dec 21, 2005 @ 03:47am · 2 Comments


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	Mmm, rantery. I think everyone's been sick, I know I have. Coughing up blood definantly isn't good, but it happens. It doesn't mean you're dying. Virginity isn't important. Humans are all animals anyway, and what do animals do ? Exactly. It happens, and it isn't horribly wrong or sinful or something to be full of self-hate about. So you're not a virgin ? Who cares ? It's an eccentric train of thought, and you shouldn't worry about it. She isn't a virgin either, you know. Virginity does not make someone better then others, it's just physical prudism. You aren't a whore, you never will be, and she's just being a picky picky b*h. Sorry if that offends anybody, but it's true. If you ever need to talk to me I'm here. Boredom, I know. Tiredness....I know that too. That's what it's all about though. Life can't be action-packed and a total blast the whole way through. Going through all the st makes us realize just how nice some things are when we finally get them. Everyone's useless to some degree, but look on the bright side. Even if it's hard to do, always always always at least try to look on the bright side of things. Your family doesn't help you ? At least you don't always depend completely on others. You got in a fight with your ex ? It happens, people don't always agree on something. You're sick ? That does suck, but you'll get better. And you aren't a virgin ? Well, at least you aren't a frigid b*h. That has to count for something, right ? 3nodding Offline S3htek** · Community Member · Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 06:52am


	Ohhh... blood isn't good. I really REALLY hope you're doing well. I was sick for awhile, but not to bad. You're mother should get you to the Doctor because that's the best thing. As for Sean's mom... wow. That's not right to judge poeple on what they have done in the past. So what? It's your decision! She has no right to say who can and can't date her son, and if Sean doesn't see that he should really think about it. You're an awesome person and any guy would be soooooo lucky to have you as his girl. You should think more highly of yourself, so many people love you for who you are and wish they could take your pain from you... I know I do. We need you and love you, all of us. If not, why would we bother? Don't think about what people said, especially adults. They think they knew what is best for us but they can't see that inside we're screaming to be let out. Think about this... in two or so years we'll all be on our own, doing what we want when we want... and we don't have to worry about getting into trouble or any of that crap. I think the teenage years are worse because we fight for independance and our parents crush all of our tries. Date whom you want, that's your choice. If the guy won't date you because of what his mother says, it's his loss... totaly his loss. Offline Krishna230 · Community Member · Sun Jan 01, 2006 @ 03:27am

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