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How can I express how I feel? I may still the ring on my finger, but at times I want to throw it against the wall. My heart has just broken into two. How could I be so stupid? I swore up and down to myself that he wouldn't! So what's he do? He does! Omfg... I feel like I just got slapped in the damn face.I can't even stand to hear the words "I love you" or even just "Love". I'm so emotionless. This is the most emotion i've released all day since 6 hours ago. I'm so sick of this feeling. My stomach screams in pain on how hungry I am. My brain says how much i'm an idiot. My heart screams don't let me break apart. But that seems a little late. Why?! Why didn't I care at the damn time! Why Why Why Why Why. I feel like dying. I feel like becoming a nothing in everyone's eyes. Just a person who everyone walks by with out a glance at. I want to be slapped and get out of these emotions. I don't know how to trust again. Don't know if i'll love again. Just... want to be ok again. Not some damn fake smile to everyone going about my life like a turtle. Is that so hard to ask of?! Just...idk what i'm even saying...