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This is a day of review for me. A review of the past year in my life. Today's significance is the first year anniversiry of the death of my beloved cat Sidney. If you've ever read this journal before you would know why this is so important for me. I've been trying to change my life, because I'm so patetic...I'm sad nearly constantly. And all of my memories...I didn't even relize that I was happy until they were already memories. How sad of an existence do I have to have that I don't even know when I'm happy. Most of the time I just say it's cause I'm a teenager...that is part of it but there is so many other things that I want to change so badly. And I can it makes me feel hopeless and leaves me wanting to scream into pillows. and I don't know what to do. I know I'll get through it...but it's a dark period for me. crying emo