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Well this strikes me as odd to be talking about this to stangers but here goes...
I like this guy and I would say he is my first crush/love. We went to the same preschool and I didn't relize it until recently. He moved to my school in 5th grade and I wasn't intrested in him because my friend was crushing on him, but we were both invited to be in a club and after spending all of that time with him I thought maybe I would like him. After deciding that I did like him I kept it a secret for two years and then slowly my friends found out. One of my friends asked if they could tell him and they did and we started hanging out more. Then I hear about a bet going on between him and my friend and his ex. He had to try to get a girlfriend before thursday. My friends warned me, and on friday he asked me out and I, foolishly, told him no. Later after this we got further apart and I still liked him. Even today I still like him and sort of keep my distance from him. He treats me way different from everyone else, he protects me from teasting, he doesn't tease me either, etc. From what I see I'm his type, blond, intelligent, etc. The only other difference is I'm painfully shy. He has dated some of my friends...Nicole, Sierra, Taylor, Liz. I've changed alot now...but he remains constant. I can't stop thinking about him constantly...I don't know what to do. I know it's weird and I'm thinking too much about it...but he has consumed my mind...I'm so stupid... gonk