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Today's been turning into one of those really shitty days where I start getting sick of having to put up with people's crap... but, most of it's all in my head. I've always been an overly emotional person, quick to feel insulted, quicker to burst into tears. Sometimes I think I'm doing better... then... it just randomly hits me again... and I'm left sitting there, trying not to cry... and all over something that doesn't really mean anything.

I'll... be vauge.

I was talking with a friend this morning.... didn't hear from them for an hour, which is fairly normal... happens a couple times a day.... eh. they've got other things they're doing, can't expect them to remember me all the time. so whatever. it wasn't even that they hadn't read my message, it was still in my outbox, so I was fine.

Get to work... they'd answered, I wrote back.... eh, it was a kinda depressing topic.... but... I wait. 10 minutes go bye. 15 go bye... I check.... it's in the sentbox.....

So, they just haven't responded yet. it's okay... I'm a fairly patient person, maybe they got distracted. But.... I reach 30 minutes... they're still on, still haven't responded. This is when I started to just get fed up with them... I mean... Gee, thanks for responding... glad to know I mean anything. Well... about then is when I think, "Okay, whatever. Ignore me, I don't give a s**t." So I go on best I can... talked briefly with another friend...

I'm a snoop, figured maybe this first friend had been busy away from the computer, or something...... no... been posting away in their little vending threads. So, just ignoring me... and... I get tired of it. They do this all the time. Don't answer the pm... and I have to send another before they'll ever talk with me again.

And.... I get sick of it. I'm tired of being the one that has to reach out first. It's just... I'm tired of it. I have no real reason. It just... hurts. They just completely ignore me for almost 2 hours.

But. Whatever. I don't give a s**t.

Screw you, man, I don't have to time to feel bad for myself because another person has better things to do then try and hold a conversation with me.

And so I do one of the things I do best, ignore the fact that I feel like crying and just bury it away.