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Here is the deal i have not been happy for a while now ,certain thingz have been pissing me off to no end. I feel like im not included in my family just because im "different" ugh... stare Define different....what? Someone who is smart,NOT out doing things i have no buisness ,doing getting in trouble all the time for stupid stuff such as gang violence,drugs,sex!! Please, just because im ACTUALLY trying to DO something with my life, makes ME the loser.I can't "hang" and have friends becuase i have NO time to do those moronic things. Im not gonna sit there and smoke weed with you JUST to destroy MY life!! I have worked hard an will continue working hard to reach my goal in life.
If any thing YOU are the losers!! Recently ,i kind of expressed my feelings to these girls at my school, and i have to say it wasn't pretty.Since i had not been happy with these people to whom i owe the blame of destroying my family to, i hadn't been talking much. They began to wonder why and i wasn't giving them answers i didn't feel i owed them any! Over a week now i had not been talking and i guess they got tired of it(i don't care if they did anyways). Out of no where one of the girls start yelling at me! She yelled disgusting things such as "YOU KNOW WHAT?! WE DON'T NEED YOU!! WE DON'T NEED YOU IN OUR GROUP!! WE DON'T NEED YOU!" i couldn't believe she had the nerve to yell at me like that so i kind of lost it an snapped back. i slammed my fist on the table and yelled back at them.. " YOU THINK I NEED YOU PEOPLE?! I HATE YOU,I HATE ALL OF YOU!!" they flinched,i got so angry i really felt as if any second i could just punch that girl in the face, but surprisingly i just snatched up my stuff and walked out. People were in shock and staring, im surprised the princaple didn't grab me. How could she do that? yell at me, all the crap they have put me through making me feel unwanted,gossiping, putting ME down just because i like certain things! I hate them ,i really do i meant every word i yelled at them and i certainly DO NOT feel bad about it. Im just tired of dealing with these people,i can't even stand looking at their faces. That happened yesterday, today i was prepared to have some one say something to me. I wouldn't care of course what they said to me,but once they put their hands on me or made any type of advance....yeah i would defend myself and make sure that next time they think TWICE about putting their hands on me. Im sorry but i wish a b***h would...i would ******** them up so quick. Now of course not UNLESS they make a move first cuase i got the right. No one said anything to me i went to my regular seat,those girls were there. They said.."we're sorry selena,we didn't mean to yell at you and make you angry,sorry!" they began waiting for a reaction. I didn't even look at them... did they expect a "oh its ok im sorry too!". Nah HELL nah, never would i apologize to those bitchez. I let them sit there and wait, and they could keep waiting for all i care! Im saying there are plenty of other things they need to apologize for and until they realize thier faults im not saying a damn thing to them. As far as i know all they are is just bumps on the road toward my goal and yeah, i have already BEEN over them. They are nothing to me, like i said i am so over this its time for me to move on to bigger and better things. So ~~PEACE OUT WHOREZ!!~~ (my goodbye to all those sluts that THINK they got the best of me)xD