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I dont know what to do........im confused on so many thingz my dream is to be a singer i want to have it all. Be successful , people to love me an perform everywhere in the world bring joy to people. I really want to help people around the world as well as charity and all of that! I want it so bad............i can feel it,i feel its so close but yet so far away. Maybe its me being hesitant if so than i need to kick it up i need to advance i have to start working on it.

Im gonna start writing songs ,working on them really....well ive already started one i hope it turns out good. I want my voice to be herd for the first time ever im tired of being in the background. The girl who never says a thing except that one time when i lost it....but that just shows how tired i was.I want respect i dont want to sound demanding or spoiled but i feel i diserve it. After all i have been through.

I realize,i complain about the place i live in when really it has no affect on why i feel i cant do certain things. It doesnt matter where i come from,this place,the people all i have to do is try.I will do what needs to be done for me,my family,the people close and dear to my heart..............not for them.

I would never want anything else in the world than this, for my dream to come true and now that ive thought about it......i realize this is why im here,why i exsist. I wont settle for anything less i wont rest easy i will not sleep well i repeat i will NOT rest easy,not until i know for sure that at the end of each and every day ,ive come closer to accomplishing that dream.

~~PEACE~~