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Why in the world did I take my ex, of 6 break ups back? No it's not because he's persistant about asking me out, and not because I love him, but because I'm weak. I know that were going to break up before the end of the week is over, and he'll probably treat me bad, again. I would like to know what is going through his head, what went through it when he even considered asking me out. He never cared about me, he only hung around to pay respects. Although he said that he had a new outlook on life last night, doesn't really mean anything. I've been having a new way of thinking as well but it doesn't mean that i'm going to convert to those new goals that I set. I just can't tell my best friend, or best friends, I told them that I wouldn't date anymore, especially Landon, but only Clay knows and he's the only one that's going to know. If Andrew found out he would give me crap about it, breathing down my back, and telling me to break up with Landon. But then again Landon did say that he would work extra hard to make it work this time. I don't know only time can tell who is right and who was wrong, who doubted us, who was against us, and who was right about us. I know one thing, I'm going to have to try super extra hard to be nice and to keep my 'I don't care about you, unless your going to prove yourself to me and try just as hard as I do.'

Day 1= who knows
Day 2= I wish I knew
Day 3= I hope it goes good
Day 4= Hope to be the greatest day of my life
Day 5= Hope to be the sadest day of my life
Day 6= Finding my gear
Day 7= Kicking Clay's a**


I'm so violent huh? just a overview of how my week is going to go, Day 7 is the day that Landon will probably be when he breaks up with me for the 6th time in a year and also the time that I finally get to tell Clay to his face that I knew it all along, and the Day that I'll be the farest in my hole of darkness and act like my life is perfect, when it sucks even more than it did before...