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*sigh* i just want 2 give up, idk y i just kinda do. i think the only time i'm happy now adays is when i'm asleep n dreaming, but i don't dream very often so u can see a problem. maybe thats wats happening, i'm sleeping more now because i feel this way, n it's slowly eating away at wat i love, it makes me want 2 tear my heart out, n just leave it, that way it's easier 2 move on*slumps on a coach n leans my head on my hand* whenever i look at a mirror, i hate the person that looks back, she teases me, taunting me as if i were a lil toy......that person, i knew who she was but she's slowly dieing, n the person coming into her place, cold, thats all she is, cold as snow n tough as rock, emotionless.... isn't that wat i wanted all along *brokenly smiles n shrugs* idk, thats just plainly it idk.....do i want 2 be cold? no...yes....? wat will happen 2 the warmth i once harbored? thats the question i want answered.