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after years of spending time,
after months of thought,
after days of realization,
after an eternity of chance,

i have felt
the blow that was
unintentionally delt
to my heart.

it took a long while,
and an enchanted night
to notice the black hole
that is now my soul.

it is not your fault
that this hollow in me
feeds on my mind
and curses me with pain.

after all of the time that weve spent together,
and after being forcibly seperated from you,
ive realized that you were tied to my heart,
and when you left, you ripped it out, and kept it.

and i have suffered
for weeks on end
with this hole in me
and thoughts of you.

but when i talked to you, days ago,
the hole had filled up.
and i was really happy,
to be with you again.

but you had to leave,
and when you did,
you ripped my heart out again,
and the hole is bigger.

i have wondered
what it would be like,
if you left me
for good.

if you died,
and took my soul with you.

if i could live,
if i could find the strength
to live on
without you there.

you are gone,
and i cant stand
not being
with you.

i miss you,
and i want to be with you again.

i want to make things the way they were,
to hear your voice upon my ears,
feel your hand upon my shoulder,
and see your face upon my eyes.