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The title basically expresses what I feel right now...

You know what I mean...

I'm really sorry for making you feel like that...I knew that my love wasn't corresponded...

I feel like dirt ^^;

I feel like crying, but I can't, it's painful...I hope we two can still be friends, and I hope that this doesn't mislead our friendship. GOD! I FEEL SO STUPID! I'm not sure if telling him was the best thing now that I now the fact that the love isn't a two way road...Please forgive me...
Why do I feel this way!? I HATE IT! I HATE IT! It pains me to think of how I made him feel...it makes my stomach lurch in self hatred. And to think that this was the first true love for me...It wasn't physical like before...now I see that I'm just a dumb teenager who hyperbolizes everything. I hate myself for the way I am, I've never really cared about anything else, and now, the thing for what I care about the most is utterly unobtainable...

Alas, my self pity and hatred won't make people change their minds...