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I KEEP SNEEZING!

After this journal post...im done posting. Leaving this account this time for real for a few days. Im gonna give one person my other account name cuz i trust him....everyone else can ******** off for a bit. Not that anyone else wants to talk to me anyway.

okay okay....

I don't think he loves me. And he can read this and hate me for all i care.
I totally love him to pieces. Always think about him...And i don't think he gives a s**t about me. After him....if everything im thinking is true. I'm never going to try again with a guy. Its not worth being hurt over and over and over again now is it? I just...I felt like every time i talked to him that it all just felt so right. I just...i wish someone cared for once instead of hurting me every time. I don't know any guys here who aren't jerks or aren't wanting to get into my ******** pants!! Hell i don't know any guys at all...not out here at least. They're all online. Im never going to fall for a guy ever again! i feel so stupid and unwanted for ever trying. I was just starting to really open up to him but he doesn't care...got it. He doesn't really love me like he said. I got it. HE ******** HATES ME!!! I ******** GOT IT!
s**t im like...hating myself to the point where it would be so nice to not be alive. I finally started crying just like i've wanted to for days and days.


I'm through with talking to brent. I totally figured him out. He goes after every ******** girl he can talk to. HOW ******** LOW!!!


******** WHOEVER IS READING!!!