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I
SWEAR.
I swear you guys are thiis close to make me explode.
Sick of you.
Sick of you coming to me seeking for help, I give you my opinion, you do nothing.
YOU COME AGAIN IN PAIN.
I tell you the same, and something new.
YOU
STILL
DON'T
******** DO ANYTHING.
It's like
"HEY CARLA, LET'S GET ******** UP AND DIE"
"OKAY! =D"
DD:
I love you all... I do... BUT. I DON'T KNOW.
sometimes you get on the way of my happiness.
Like, I feel happy, then you bring up something unecessary that makes me feel like s**t again.
SOMETHING THAT'S NOT EVEN BOTHERING YOU, something that you use as a reason to mess up with me.
I know, I know.
"Gosh, relax, it's just a joke."
Sure... You consider it a joke when it hurt me already.
Not necessarily hurt, but marked me.
I want to take a break ._.
Like, get off the computer for a while...
But if I do, I'll lose tons of friends, and I'm just getting them all back.
Usually I say "You're happy, I'm happy." But I have emotions of my own .___.
When I tell you to stop, just STOP.
I don't ******** care if you read this, I just need to let it all out.
I AM ALSO SICK OF PEOPLE CALLING THEMSELVES MY BEST FRIEND.
I MAKE MY OWN FRIENDS, GUYS, I decide who is my best friend(s)...
Do you know what I mean?
"IT SHOULD BE -Insert person's name here-, BECAUSE I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND."
"Yes...you are."
NO YOU'RE NOT.
I know who are my real friends, who are with me no matter what.
You know who you are, in Gaia, it's only one person who is my best friend.
Out there, I have like 3 more best friends.
It just gets on my nerves that you think you're my best friend and you never help me or anything .__. ...
Also, you expect me to be perfect.
YOU GET MAD OVER THE SMALLEST MISTAKE I MAKE.
I trip, you get ******** pissed.
Like, whoa, seriously... Relax, it's not like I'm the only one that makes mistakes, even you, yourself, you make mistakes.
or you get mad over my lies.
OH MY ******** GOD!
Haven't you ever lied or what?
I bet you had, it's impossible that you hadn't.
Even if you answer "no" to that, you're lying.
Anyways, I'm starting to get all emotional here emo
So byebye.