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The "this" is a whole lot more than what I've put in here.
Miranda is at competition or on her way back from it, but doing something making her unable to answer her phone so I can't talk to her. Same for Julia.. Sarah is at the race right now so I know she wont answer her cell phone.. I mean, hell, she didn't even return my call about the voicemail message I left her to let her know that we lost the football game.. I called my friend Chris and I got his voicemail-as always-and I know we're not close but I was hoping for once he would be able to answer his phone... I'm hurting because of what I found out thats been going around in this family for years.. I just never knew about it. Jermey and I have supposedly always been considered "Nanny's favorite." just because both of us have lived with her and grandpa (not by our choice), but to be honest with you I'm glad I've lived with her.. If not for her I wouldn't be who I am today.. My whole family is jealous of something that makes them say things about me that isn't fair... I consider all my time with Nanny as a blessing.. There is also a lot more but I'm not going to repeat it. Yet these people who are saying things about me are the ones that I've always had respect for... I never knew my family was full of all this s**t.. I've been hidden from it for so long.... Now it comes full force and it hurts... I don't even know who I can trust in the Hadley family anymore...what I mean is the relatives that live in other states.. Not Mom and Nanny. I feel so alone and it hurts all I want to do is stay away from all this s**t.. I'm done.