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you knew i loved you,
and lately, ive been happy
because i was being oblivious
to the events of a year ago

and now, i have a girlfriend, and we like eachother alot
but my two good friends wanted to know more of me,
so i told them of the year before,
and realized I loved you, more than I knew

i realized that we shared alot with each other,
more than i noticed, or knew

i had the time of my life with you,
at the end of the year before
and i feel as though
weve made a strong connection with one another.

a connection, that was, and is, still to great for me to handle,
and now that your gone, my heart cant take it
and i am confused, more than i ever was
and feel like... i was at peace before.

but now that we are seperated, and we cant communicate,
i feel ignored, like something very important is missing...
i feel as though, you were ripped away from me, and i'm emotionally raped...
and i dont know how much longer i can take it.

i feel like im slowly dying inside,
and that eventually, ill dissapear...
into a black nothingness, cold, and alone...
i still love you, because the connection is still there.

it seems as though your haunting me,
and trying to crawl into my skull

well its working, and i cant get you out of my head
i want you to leave, and stop mentally torturing me,
but at the same time, i want you to stay
because that is the only way i can remember you.