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Why do people have t get sick and die? ******** tell me cuz it hurts a lot when someone you aren't exactly close to but think is amazing is sick and doesn't have a year to live! God its bothering meee a lot! and im trying to act like its nothing and that i should be happy but DAAAAYYYYAAAMMM its a ******** hard thing to do! And i just got sick from crying and eww i need to brush my teeth again....eww...that beside the point tho.

I don't like people dying..and honestly when i used to go to bed it was one thing i thought about untill i got a bf to think about. that was 2 years ago...and lately its been haunting me again. I don't want to die. And i used to think that no one would care if i didn't wake up the next morning. Would they? Its not the best thing to think before going to sleep i know. but i did..and do....

My grandpa might have stage 3 lung cancer....he might not live through this next year....and its a hard thing to think about. im done crying tho....i can't any more hah. Ive cried enough anyway.