10-13-08
i've been thinking about you
i love what you do to me
i hate what you do to me
i dont know what to think of you anymore
you keep me baffled
do you do it on purpose?
i dont like being confused, it makes me feel stupid
do you keep me confused so that i wont know what to do and just give you what you want?
im less likely to struggle on what you want if i know whats going on
i love what you do to me
i hate what you do to me
i dont know what to think of you anymore
you keep me baffled
do you do it on purpose?
i dont like being confused, it makes me feel stupid
do you keep me confused so that i wont know what to do and just give you what you want?
im less likely to struggle on what you want if i know whats going on
11-13-08
i am deeply saddened by the fact that i never had the opertunity to hear your band play
i looked forward to hearing you sing and play teh songs you worked so hard to write to much
i miss your voice
i love it
i'll miss it
i heard it again, in the form of a message you left me so long ago on yahoo
you were tired, you were letting me know you were heading off to bed
your voice was so sleepy and adorable, i miss it
yes, that was all the way back when you would let me know of those little details, when you didnt leave me worrying what happened to you
back when you cared
your have ripped out my heart and left me to die in this cold, damp, depressing abyss i call a mind
you dont deserve the devotion i showed you, the loyalty, the love
you dont deserve any of it for what you have done to me
why is it so hard to let you go
it is harder then ever to get you out of my head
you are all i think about
is this what i wanted?
i already couldnt stop thinking about you
the difference is that back then i didn't collapse into a trembling, sobbing heap
i looked forward to hearing you sing and play teh songs you worked so hard to write to much
i miss your voice
i love it
i'll miss it
i heard it again, in the form of a message you left me so long ago on yahoo
you were tired, you were letting me know you were heading off to bed
your voice was so sleepy and adorable, i miss it
yes, that was all the way back when you would let me know of those little details, when you didnt leave me worrying what happened to you
back when you cared
your have ripped out my heart and left me to die in this cold, damp, depressing abyss i call a mind
you dont deserve the devotion i showed you, the loyalty, the love
you dont deserve any of it for what you have done to me
why is it so hard to let you go
it is harder then ever to get you out of my head
you are all i think about
is this what i wanted?
i already couldnt stop thinking about you
the difference is that back then i didn't collapse into a trembling, sobbing heap
pertaining to 11-16-08:
you felt sorry for me? you wanted to give me another chance?
shut the hell up
im the one who broke up with you, YOU cant give Me another chance. and you "felt sorry" for me? ******** no, if you are going to take me back at all i dont want you to feel sorry for me!
just ******** no
that isnt allowed
if we are to be together at all i want you to LOVE ME
not feel sorry for me
there is no point in it if you dont love me. which is why i ended it in the first place
back in 2007 it actual felt like you cared
you would make the frist message of the day more often then not
you would say that you felt something other then "ok" more often
you would try to start a conversation every now and then
you would respect if i wasnt ok with something
i dont know what changed this year, but i wasnt happy because of it
i havent taken my pills sense i left you
and im completely fine
you were the root of my depression this year
and now im finally happy, i can smile genuinely for the first time in forever
given the circumstance breaking up with you was the best think i ever did
