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O.k. So, I was talking to my sister today.... Wait, let me rewind. About a week ago, my sister (Black demons aka BD) was invited to a sweet 16. Big whoop... Well, the girl that is having the party was handing out invites at school, polite people would pull you over to the side and give you the invite in private so not to hurt anybody's feelings, right? To bad that's not the case here... The girl, right in front of ME, hands my sister the stupid card and then looks to me and says, "Ha, you're not coming to my party!" If there weren't other people around I would have cursed her out but, because I'm a "Good Child," I just screamed at her in my head. (Gave myself a headache, but at least, I'm not grounded!) Let me let you in on a little something I haven't mentioned yet... MY SISTER AND I GO EVERYWHERE TOGETHER!!!! EVERYWHERE!!!!!!! You rarely ever see DL without BD and BD without DL!!! (DL is me for those of you with no brains) So, by not inviting me is like a slap in the face!! Plus, I've been nothing but nice to this girl and have not thought anything negitive about her!! That has all changed though... The sameday she handed out invites and then made that smartas* comment, I ran into her in the hall/theater and as I was walking past her (me almost completely forgetting about earlier) she yells, "Aren't you bummed that you didn't get an invite to my party?!" Once again, if I wasn't SUCH A NICE PERSON, I would have KILLED HER DEAD!!!! She was just so proud of herself for not inviting me and inviting my sister. I wouldn't have gone to her party anyways, even if I was invited!!!! I don't really let stuff like this bother me so such but, (as I had said in the beginning) I was talking to my sister today and the topic of "Why DL wasn't invited to the party," came up. Now, I was expecting something like 'only a few people could come' and blah blah blah... Though, NOTHING EVER HAPPENS THE WAY I PLAN because I can't ever win!!!!! Anyway, my sister told me that the reason I wasn't invited was because the girl thinks I'm weird... ME WEIRD?!!!! SHE ACTS LIKE A FRIGGIN RETARD!!!!!!!! (little voice inside my head: WHAT A B*TCH!!!!) Not many things shock me, but THIS!!!! OH NO!!! THIS WAS BEYOND JUST STOCKING!!!! I CAN'T EVEN FIND A WORD THAT DESCRIBES THE WAY I FELT AND AM STILL FEELING!!! If, you'd ever met this girl, you'd understand why I was so dumbfounded!!! This is a girl who (you'd think) likes everybody!! WHAT DO I KNOW?!!!! By the sound of it, N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!! ZIP!! ZERO!! NOTTA!!! *sighs* I've never done or say anything to her that would make her dislike me.... NEVER!!! I thought she was somebody that could actually be trusted!! Now, I'm never gonna be able to even look at her, let alone SPEAK with her, without feeling hurt... I'd talk to her and tell her how I feel but.... that would only make things uncomfortable at school for her... and I can't do that to her... Yeah sure, I'll feel uncomfortable and uneasy, but why make her feel like that too... I'm not swallow.... and I definitely don't want to stoop down to her level... I'm pretty good at avoiding people so I'll just have to get used to it... I just can't believe she'd do something like this to me... even if I didn't like her and I was inviting her brother or something to my party, I'd at least ASK her if she'd like to come... It's not like it would be just me and her... there'd be other people I'd go hang out with.... Dang, I hate these kind of things... I don't really know what I should do.... If anybody has any ideas about this little situation, please comment. AND SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL BD TO SHUT THE HELL UP!!! I'M NOT JEALOUS!!!!!! I DON'T GET JEALOUS!!!!!!