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I refuse to let him in...
I've failed so many times before.
The broken glass of my once happy heart
Sill lays on that dark and cold floor.

He shall not pass.
I will win this battle deep inside.
My wall will not go down
I can run and hide.

No matter how much I think he's nice
Or how gentlemanly he can be.
I will still get hurt and end up
giving him my hearts key.

That guy was the last straw
My heart will no longer be open any more.
Yet the yearning for love
Churns my cold and dying core.

I know what will happen if I open this gate
I've seen it so many time before in this game.
But the girl deep inside still had a soul
to be tamed.

If I open the door a little bit
And maybe talk with him a while.
I might be able to laugh
and maybe show him my smile.

Maybe if I let him in
he's see how delicate I am for a bit.
And never touch that hurting part
to even try to fix it.

Wait!
Why am I trying to let him in?
All he'll do to me is try
to fool me with his grin.

My heart is forever closed and placed
under lock and key.
No more time for trying
my own love rememedies.

This turmoil inside myself
will try to break me apart.
But my brain knows
how to fix a troubled heart.

The man I wait for will come some day
but not in robes of red.
In white he'll ride up to my wall
and break it with tears of lead.

He'll save me from this torture pit
that I fell into long ago.
He'll wrap me in his arms
and tells me how much he loves me so.

I'll never have to wander long
along this dark path like I feared.
He'll be my guide and guardian,
my love forever endeared.

The boy that waits at my gate
now only wants inside.
To see who I truly am
just to experience the ride.

I can hold my gates until then
Because I'll never let that boy even if her cries,
because the man that needs to get in,
will never have to try.