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hehe I LIVE!! ...hehehehe....*sweat* well *cough* anyways... Well, my life has been pretty wierd. I might be breaking up with my byfriend, and i've met a really nice Person i call Spoon. He's soo hot. BUT...wait..i think i cahnged subjects to fast. The person Spoon, he has absolutly nothing to do with me splitting up with Baha. sweatdrop just wanted to clear that up... Ok see....i'll try and make since of why we might be slitting.

It really started when Baha started RP with this girl named Shainal. But i was ok with him talking to her. What really bugs me is that since he met her he's basicly been ignoring me. Like in a day he'll talk to me and we'll have a conversation like this:
Baha: Hey Love
Me: hihi
Baha: How have you been?
(i really hate that..peoples always ask that even if they talked to me and asked it earlier that day...it drives me crazy)
Me: I'm good
Baha: thats good
Me: how're you?
Baha: I'm good
Me: Thats...goo-....GREAT!!
(i hate hearing the word good to many times...)
This is were there is silence as we wait for each other to say something, but we never do.

And he always leave Away messages say "Shainal post" or something. It really hurts my feelings. I mean...I KNOW that he talks to her more than he talks to me all the time. But he always says he doesn't he's always like "She's way to old for me. She's like 21..." GRR!! *pulls hair out* it's like he doesn't even know i exist anymore...i just want strait forward answers...not something that has nothing to do witht he question... I mean...it's to the point where i would rather spend time with his parents than with him. Thats pretty bad considering he lives three hours away from me, by train that is... Anyways, thats pretty much why i might be breaking up with Baha. It's really depressing.

Now on to this really hot guy, Spoon. I met Spoon on ragnarok and he's really cute and nice and sweet. i was kinda sad that i was already in a relationship when i met him. But i really don't want to cheat on Baha, even if he might be. It's just not right..and two wrongs don't make a right either. So anyways i'm just Spoons friend but he's still really nice. and on Ragnarok, he like, he won't lvl without me. It's so sweet. I really like him. i even got him a santa hat! <3 40k it was too...T.T all my money!!

Now all of that is just in my internet life (well basicly anyways) In my school life i think it's just as bad.

Ok well i know this guy names Wesley and he's like a good friend. I mean we have all our main classes together and we hang out an stuff and we're always talking. But it's so annoying everybody is like "Hey Wesley/Kaitlyn are you dating her/him?" I MEAN EVERBODY SEEMS TO THINK WE'RE DATING!. what girls arn't aloud to have boys that are just friends? one of my best frineds, her name is Ashlee. I was talking to welsy and she pulled me over and said "someone has a boyfriend" of course i came back with a smart answer... "yeah, he lives three hours away" but still it was annoying. I mean, geez..my friend... *pulls out more hair* Wesley thinks just the same as i do, we're just friends. But everyone else thinks that because we fool around with each other than we're girlfriend and boy friend. GAHH!!... scream i mean..everyone seems to think that when girls pick on boys it means their flirting and that they like the boy. But thats not ture with me. My dad tought me to be outgoing and nice to everyone, so i pick on everyboy, weather i like them or not. So..what...that means i like every ugly boy in my school...I THINK NOT.... se i naturally flirt because it's in my nature...WHY DOESN"T ANYBODY UNDERSTAND!! TT.TT

Ok well i think your pretty updated sorta now. The families fine, we'= might be loosing our internet, the phones already gone...so..yeah..whatever. see ya later all.