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(Im sorry, if Im not suposed to post in certain places, im new, not quite sure what to do.)

My mother smokes, my father died from lung cnacer, I will never smoke, I watched my father die in my arms choking on his own cancerous fluids...for a ten year old that was a horrific expireence I should hope that no one would want to have..and if someome were to ask me why I hate ciggerett smoking this is the story I would tell them..I hope you have time to read it..because it is something I will never forget.


December 25, 2000

I was ten years old, I am now fifteen as I tell you this story that I hope you'll listen to. My fathers name was Micheal he was my Step. Father but the only one I had and the best thing to one as possible, things happen to a person when they develope cancer though, they loose sight of realisty they yell and curse drink the pain away tell you things you know are not true but that hurt none the less. I have Cronic asthma, I can't run and do sports the smoke I have inhaled or encountered since I was a fetus has most likely done more to me then I can imagine. I have numerous health problems, I realise though that its not easy to quit smoking and if you know someone that does you shouldn't push them into it, nag all you want but it has to be a decision they make on there own make them feel better about themselves because thats why they smoke in the first place find out what gives them the most stress take it away, my father died on christmas day..in my arms he chocked on the whiskey he drank to take the pain away..if you wish to talk to me anymore on the subject contact me at moon_star_rain55@hotmail.com I have to leave right now..my hands are shaking.