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Ok, heres the deal.
i just found out like monday ((when i found myself thinking about him, for no apparent reason)), that She likes richard!
of all people, i never would have guessed him.
and im so surprised by the fact that i actually like him to.
Ok, richard is the new guy at our school, he just transferred from riverside.
hes an awsome artist, funny, and he loves anime!!!!!!!!!
i cant believe it.
Skye actually picked out a good one.
But, up until today, ive been too afraid to say anything.
You see, it boils down to this.
there are 2 ways that i know whether or not i like a guy.
Number one is Ban's way: RAWR! *punches him* GRRRRRR! *kicks him*
or, basically, if i feel any kind of violent urge towards them for no reason what so ever. then i know.
Or,
Number two, Skye's way: Hey *dosnt look directly at him* so, whats up *keeps the conversation light and short* wow, thats cool. *quits talking* neat *laughs*
yeah, so do i *looks down, blushing, or turns away completely*
so, basically, if i find that i cant meet their eyes ((im a bold person, and i consider being able to look anyone straight in the eye with my head held up is a point of pride for me, because it seems to me to show that i have no fear, and that im that persons equal and im telling them so, without even speaking----do you get it? sweatdrop )), or i feel all light headed or giggly, or hell, even uncomfortable, then i know that i like them.
You see, i transverse between two extremes!
Ban wants to make them bleed and tie them up with nylon ropes and handcuff them, and skye gets so shy, she can barely speak to them!
scream
im so tired of this!
*tugs at her own hair*
i wish they would just stop for once!
I wasnt even aware of who he was, until one day at lunch, he started talking to me, and i realized, that he must know me, but i felt like I had never even met him before.
sweatdrop
damn it all to the bloody recesses of hell!
theyre just here to torment me, i know they are!
crying
why cant i just be normal!?!
((but, then again, i do suppose that being "normal" would just be too boring i guess))
but, i dunno, even Ban likes him, or rather, she likes his art.
and so, me being in the state that i was in, asked sammi-kun to get him for me, and she was in a good mood today, and determined to play cupid, which apparently, it worked, so now were gonna get to have a whole lunch period to sit and blush at each other....great.
sweatdrop
oh man!
why cant she just let me handle this for her!
i never blush, but shes hell bent on doing it all by herself.
*sigh*
i do hope that this works out though, i really do like him.
So, what if noone thinks hes hot, hes a really nice guy ((and surprisingly flirty at times)).
and i think hes cute.
So, i dont care.
Besides, i can never....ever beat the standard set up for me and every other poor b*****d in this world by D who, ever since dating brian, has held the trophy for butt a** ugly guys.
hey, at least richard is nice and has a personality that dosnt revolve around yu-gi-oh and the computer.
So, i guess thats it for the day, i really dont have anything else to say, and i just wanted to catch everyone who actually reads my journal up to date on things.
wink
Oh, for those who dont know by now, there are 3 of me.
in order it goes Ban-the evil, sadistic one
Me-the one stuck in the middle whos a little bit of a masochist, but dosnt take it to the extreme like cutting and burning,
and
Skye- the sweet, innocent, girly girl, whos so nice and innocent that its almost sickening.
Hey, at least theyre not as controlling as Fatal, Fatality, and Rei.
poor sammi-kun, she really does lose track of things because she gets shoved back for awhile sometimes.
its only been that bad for me like twice.
usually its for like 2-4 days tops, but one time, ban took over for nearly most of my 6th grade school year, barely even letting me out to see the light of day.
It was really bad, the first time she took over was around the end of the first quarter, and i woke up during my mid-terms, and had no ******** idea what the hell was going on, and i stayed out for about 3 weeks, and then i was pushed back again and woke up in early may, with only vague memories of the happenings of that school year. But, thank god its never gotten that bad again, and i do feel sorry for skye most times, because between ban and i, she hardly ever gets a word in edge wise. so, it has to be tough for her.
oh and the quote of the day:
Greenvile School System-More Educational Than a Boot To The Head
((greenville school system is my school district, and theyre over all of the schools in greenville county, inculding mine unfortunately, because it sucks a**....majorly))
stare
 redrum and wine · Fri Sep 09, 2005 @ 04:05am · 0 Comments |
