I promised... and I broke it, just an hour later.... I'm so bad.... I feel awful... The whole day I've been thinking and thinking, to tell or not to tell..... He could hate me from the moment I tell him on.... Or i'll hate myself from that moment on, cause he can forgive me... but I can't forgive myself.... He'll probably read this stuff... and he'll know... I think i'll just disappear for a while then....