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Miss Saira-Jayns Diary.
My wonders, my thoughts, my sadness, my hate, my anger even my happiness will be put in here.. I ain't writing to entertain.. I'm writing the truth.. My feelings.. Yeah I shouldn't write such personal stuff on here but nobody reads it anyways =]]
Unrequited love.
I'll never love with my heart again, only my head.


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Unrequited love is like a cancer, it eats your insides up and makes you feel depressed, lost and suicidal. You experience feelings of sadness, hopelessness and pain everyday/night. Aside from loosing sleep, you also loose interest in things you like doing, hobbies, working out etc. I think you just loose interest in life.

All I know is, I will never love anyone as much as I love her. I will never love anyone in the way that I love her - 'pure love'. I'll never open my heart to anyone else


I couldn't have said it better myself, infact I said the last sentence.
Then tonight I read it?

Yes. You people think i'm pathetic.
Still hopelessly inlove with my ex, who's moved on.

But I cannot help it. Everyday I try to hate him.
I try to move on.
Everyday, I wish I'd never met him. To save me from this pain.

And now? Everyday I'm also trying to fight the feelings and thoughts of him and his new girl.

Nothing seems to work. I try not to care or love him.
I can't.
I tried to fall inlove with Michael. I mean. He may live in Manchester etc.
But atleast I'd understand that's why I could never have him.

I've tried to fall for Matt. He is pretty amazing too. But nothing works.
I still feel like I'm cheating if I flirt with another guy.

I'm afraid. Afraid I'll never get over him.

All well and good Neil calling me pathetic, and having ago at me about it.
But I cannot help how I feel. Nor will he ever understand.
How can someone, who cheats on the person they "love" with any females up for it?
He's never experienced what I feel.


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