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Arguments had with myself

"Looking at his name annoys me."
"I'm mad at him."
"I thought I loved him."
"Thinking about him hurts."
"It's like I have a big empty space where my heart used to be."
"I thought my soul was fixed... Seems it's even more broken now than before."
"Why'd I have to like him in the first place?"
"He broke me. I can't forgive him for that."
"But I loved him. Maybe still do."
"If I don't, then why do I want so badly to talk to him?"
"Maybe I want to tell him what he did to me. Make him feel guilty."
"I wouldn't do that to him, though."
"So? He did it to you."
"Two years. He owes me two years of my life back."
"It's HIS fault I'm depressed!"
"No, it's my own. Blinded by love."
"I was in love with the only one who could never love me."
"I wanna cry now."
"But I can't let him get to me."
"I made my choice. I'm sticking to it."
"But what if he secretly likes me?"
"Well, then it's about time he figured it out!"
"If he doesn't like me, he's not worth my time."
"I never talk to him anyway."
"But he's nice and funny and smart, and sometimes he talks to me!"
"Oh, what an honor to be graced by his presence!(sarcasm). Seriously, get over yourself!(said to myself)."
"I'm confused."
"That's what love does to ya, honey."
"Yes, but it's so masochistic!"
"No one ever said it wasn't."
"Look at me! I'm listening to sappy love songs over him!"
"I thought I was over him."
"I thought so too."
"Maybe I should just give up?"
"No. That's what he wants me to do. I can't let him destroy me."
"Oh, who am I kidding? I already did let him. Just look at my freakin username!"
"But that was over a year ago!"
"Exactly! Which means this all happened before!!!"
"Oh, forget it. I'm done with my self-pitying. I'll just see where life takes me."