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"Sorry I was Never There"
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Everybody takes the ones I love,
Noone's left today,
Everybody steals my heart,
I stutter; I can't say.

So you took him away too?
I'm not suprised,
I wanted to touch him too,
Your actions I idolised.

I'll heal in a long time,
To mend my heart for good,
Detatch my fingers from my throat,
I don't think I should.

Thoughts of drowning myself,
They're just great,
This gets me fed up,
Why must my feelings be the one to isolate?

I want to wake up,
From this terrible nightmare,
Pinch me,
I hope this is all I have to bare.

Can't think of the consiquences,
Of actions of pain,
Just this misery won't subside,
It's cutting in my vain.

I had to get you out for now,
Had to get you out of my skin,
I can't take you at the moment,
I've let you sink right in.

I can cut my eyes out and rip my ears to shreds,
My only desire is to never hear her laugh,
When she's with you,
If I only put two and two together... I'd of done the math.

It was clear in sight,
He liked you and you liked him,
I wasn't made to love,
Loving others is now a sin.

His picture is a bitter memory,
Our talks are a bitter present,
What could I have done,
Do get something so unpleasant?

I want it to end,
Please, oh God make it stop now,
End my broken loves,
End my life; but how?

I asked you to seek me when it rained,
So I could hold you and make it bright,
Not now; again and again and again and again,
I can only cling to memories and fall out of sight.

I will surrender to the pain,
Giving in as time stands still,
Moments go by and I can't breathe,
Sensing my cold skin; such a thrill.

Will you walk in on me?
Stop me as I come undone?
Or will you wait a while,
And wait for the news as I'm alone?

Taking a bath in all my clothes,
Closing my eyes and pinching my nose,
Holding my breath and the thoughts of joy,
I've been fooled again as your toy,
Door can be pushed down; it was locked,
Love has tortured me and it has mocked,
Don't think I can hold on as I'm falling,
Don't think I will be calling.

I'll be waiting to smile again for real,
Not from a stupid joke or a fake laugh,
My mask of happiness is worn perfectly,
You're decieved as my heart is split in half.

Comfort is what I wanted from you,
Completion is far to be,
Stop my broken heart,
As it beats farther from me.






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outsider_mentality
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commentCommented on: Wed Aug 17, 2005 @ 05:05am
how sad..... i really like it though.... its beautiful.... in its own way... crying smile
r u gonna be ok?


commentCommented on: Wed Aug 17, 2005 @ 10:02am
Kassie, I don't think you'll ever know how sorry I am. But I don't regret what I did. I'm just sorry for the pain that I've caused you. Weather you beleive it or not.



Twisted Lullaby
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