Been busy.
Novel: Chapter 15 is going to be the end of part one, and I've started it, and I have an idea for the ending of it, AND an idea for the start of part 2 and chapter 16, but it's just in the outline stage.
School: Writing a paper about my disability: Sensory Processing Disorder. Go look it up. My paper's pretty damn good, and if it's good enough, I could get it published, or at least give a copy to every teacher in the school, or a copy to some teachers from my middle school.
Today I've got to write a script for a talk show about certain chapters of The Odyssey. Fun fun. Especially since I'm the one doing the most work in my group. I'm actually analyzing the story, but one girl is just going on SparkNotes (or whatever the hell that site is), the guy in my group "forgot" to do a very important part of his assignment (putting down a bulleted summary) and I haven't gotten in contact with the last girl, who was absent last class and said she'd try to get us her dad's video camera. And we've got to stay after school one day during the week.
Oh, my history project from last time got a B, so I'm grateful.
My math grade is about a 93.7 at the moment.
I'm getting an A in my conditioning class and soon we'll be allowed to go swimming.
Science is just the same as always. Nothing special or new.
Other activities: I marched in two parades last Monday, and my arms felt like they were going to fall off from so much spinning. But I'm getting better; I didn't drop many tosses during the day, and it was pretty windy. But I cheated. I did little pops instead of tosses most of the time.
So I asked the band director if I could borrow a flag over the summer and she says fine, and she'll hook me up with one before the end of the year.
The guy: My interest was fluctuating for a while, but now I know that I can't get rid of this feeling of admiration/attraction. So, during the parade day, I was getting ready to get my guts up to talk to him.... But he didn't show up that day. I asked my brother "WTF?" later on, and he said that apparently the guy was really sick. I felt kind of bad and contemplated sending him a "get well soon" message via Facebook.
I didn't.
But he was well enough to go into school the next day, so I felt a little better.
And here's a story for ya.
I'm a shy person. I've gotten shyer in high school, possibly because of people trying to shape me that way. Whatever, point is, I have low confidence and low self-esteem. And one morning, before classes, my brother was bothering me, poking me, and making me flinch and squeak. I said, "Dave, stop it or I'll get violent on you." I don't like getting violent on him, even when he provokes me, because he's got his back problems. But he just kept provoking me, and I was all "THAT'S IT!!!! scream " And I kicked him. He was in so much shock that I would actually do that that I ran and he didn't come after me. You see, the reason that I ran was because I thought that he would pull the "unfair" card again. Whenever I kick him when he's provoking me, he goes all "KATIE YOU DON'T HIT ME WHEN I'M STANDING LIKE THIS CUZ I COULD FALL" or something stupid like that. Even when he's the one provoking me in the first place.
Yes, he's the older one.
So, when I came back from escaping, my upperclassperson was so proud of me that she got me a gift a couple days later. It was a little plastic shiny necklace, and it's really pretty. So she said, "It's your backbone necklace" because I had finally grown a backbone, or something.
I took my new backbone and, while I was sleeping over at my buddy Kay's house with another friend, I went on my laptop and was all, "You know what? I'm gonna send <insert name here> a message via Facebook!"
After a couple of minutes of hesitation, send him a message I did. It was a polite one, topped with a little cheesyness, complimenting him about the recent choir concert, and I asked him if he was doing choir again next year.
About five minutes later, I received a reply. I was hyperventilating when I saw the message in my inbox.
His reply was short, simply answering the question I had asked. My friends and I were disappointed, but hey, it was better than nothing. He said that he was definitely doing choir next year, because choir is awesome. I replied to that, and haven't gotten a reply since that first one, but he doesn't go on Facebook much anyway.
So, I was nearly flying for the rest of the night before I passed out around 1:00 AM.
So my confidence is up, my "backbone" is growing, and one day I'm going to break away from my shyness completely. Hooray!
Well, I've gotta go and write my script now. UGH!!! This is Horse lady, signing out.
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