Schedules for next year.... I'll be a sophomore.
I'm smart, and I know that. I'm not trying to sound stuck-up or anything, especially since I'm trying to make a point. Sort of.
So, my teachers were surprised when, in march, I asked to be in A-level classes instead of Honors classes. (A is only one step under Honors, which is the highest level in some courses. I'm not gonna go into [explain] AP yet.) The reason that I requested to be in A level classes is because of the work amount and possible stress level. And also, tomorrow's my last real day of school before finals, so I missed all of the meetings about Honors courses and what the summer assignments are. But my mom's all like, "NO! I'M MAKING SURE YOU GET INTO HONORS BIO NEXT YEAR!!!" No matter how much I explain to her, she just keeps using the arguement about how I shouldn't be dumbing myself down and stuff, and if my teachers thought me worthy of going into Honors next year that I should...
So I was talking to my mom again today, and we talked about the whole "HONORS RAWRZ" thing again, and she mentioned that I should live up to my full potential. I just shrugged and said, "Fine then. In that case, I want to drop out of mixed chorus and take creative writing next year."
She added that to the list of things to discuss with my counselor, because my schedule needed to be changed due to an error anyway.
Now, I love to sing. My musician of a brother says that I have good potential and I can hold a tune, and he really thinks that I can excell in chorus stuff. But the thing is, I don't know any of the music behind it. I can't read music for crap. I can't hear notes in my head. It just doesn't come to me.
So I wanted to join mixed chorus because it would teach me some of the basics. But the thing is, I sort of felt like I'd be sacrificing part of my dignity, since mixed chorus is the worst of the choruses, made up of freshmen and bad sophomores. And then part of the only reason that I wanted to join is because the guy I like is in Concert Choir, the best of the choirs, so I'd see him at concerts.
But here's what made me want to quit.
I think I mentioned "Fred" in here somewhere. I dunno. But basically, Fred is a guy that my friends and I went to school with for a while, but he moved, and now we go to the same high school. Last summer, he contacted my friend Megan, and then contacted me, all through email. We knew it was him, so there's no online predator issues here.
So, we were catching up, and I told him about my novel. Fred tends to be brutally honest when it comes to other people's judgements and his own opinions, or facts. Not taking my feelings into consideration, he basically told me that he doubted I could do it. He said that 99.something percent of teens who "write novels" never end up finishing them. Then, he added with a smilie, he said that if I actually finished the book in ten years or so, that'd be great.
So that originally got me remembering why he wasn't very liked in the first place. And he didn't even feel that anything was wrong with saying that. And then he had the guts to say that he, too, was starting to write a story. He sent me the prologue, and I have to admit, he had a decent start going there. I dunno if he continued it, but meh. He's probably too busy taking all of his higher math courses or something.
Then he posted his schedule on Facebook for next year. He was taking, like, pre-calculus (mind you, he'll be a sophomore next year) and music comp., and....
Concert Choir.
I remember that I talked to him about singing before, and that he wasn't doing Mixed Chorus. I don't remember the reason he specified.
But then he goes and auditions for Concert Choir and gets in. Of course.
So, I'm not going to sacrifice my dignity by being the only sophomore in Mixed Chorus and being at the same concerts with him, basking in his own glory, but not truly being happy, and then seeing the guy I like just chilling with all the other seniors. If I have to sacrifice anything, I'd rather that it would not be my dignity. Or my novel. Because my novel is sort of like my dignity, but this is different.
And then I figured, "Hey, you know what? I shouldn't join a bad chorus simply because I'll be seeing the guy I only currently like at concerts. I should do creative writing!"
Creative writing is a course that is offered to sophomores and up. I'll be sure to learn tips to help develop my novel. And I'll be, like, half way through the book anyway, so the class won't interfere that much with my own process. Creative writing would be a wise choice, especially if it helps me make my life, my love, my dream, and my dignity become a reality.
Overall, I'm not quitting Mixed Chorus because some guy that always one-ups me is going to one-up me again. Well, I guess I kind of am. But hey, my other option would be the better decision.
And I do have something that I definitely one-up him in.
Empathy. Feeling. Making others feel better. Giving good advice. Not being judgemental. Being. Happy.
The glass is half-full, or... You know what? The glass is almost completely full! I've got a great life, great friends, great family, and talents. I may not be into the performing arts, but I've got one hell of a talent that none can beat! And if Fred unknowingly tries to bring me down with his realism, my book shall be my trampoline, there to spring me back on my feet again.
I'm going to finish it. Screw brutal honesty, I have a heart.
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But what's the summer assignment for Honors English going to be? (Assuming that my mom can actually get me in to that class this late. And I'll need to get the summer assignment from Kay...)
This is the invigorated and positively charged Horse lady, signing out! *gets zapped on the doorknob* Charges... Ahahahaha..... Science Honors final on Tuesday. Ahahahah...
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