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Well okay this is the first entry I have made in what seems to me a long time. What has been up with me, I guess I should start off with. There is way too much to type so I'll do quick highlights I suppose. I believe my last entry was in last June so from the A-kon 18 on out to the beginning of the 2007-2008 school year it was not gewd. It left it's impact on me and I know it. Spanish and school have been good. However I am seeing old grades and seeing how I've done all year and I must say I'm average. My word my grades are so frickin stable. A's and high B's like 86-89%. Not to say it's a bad thing. It's rather good for it to be this way. However not to say I want things to change I would prefer them increase from the previous grade. Okay I'll end grade stuff there. I did not make it into All-Region or All-City Choirs this year. I complete bummer. I wanted it bad but i guess not bad enough or I would have done better. Whatever it's in the past. Our choir got a sweepstakes in the UIL comtest. We had a great spring concert. I was accepted into this IB program so i'll be going to a different high school then most of the people in my grade level. I'm not thrilled only becuase I don't want to go to this high shcool. As dumb as this is I want to go where my friends are going and where I've been planning to go since 5th grade but should all things go well in the Ib program throughout my high school career then I'll enter college as a sophmore which is great. I'll have credits done and it's good. I'm erm not ready well mentally emotionaly ready to go. I am scared things won't be the same which of course they won't be but I fear we'll grow apart really bad and I'll be waiting by the phone and they'll be busy doing things without me and they won't call and if they do then it's not the same its a courtesy call or a call made becuase it's more of a chore to rather than something you want to do. So part of me just wants to cut everyone off I'm thinkin that'll be easier but thas wrong I know it. So I need to get over this becuase im getting sick of thinking of it coming to a conclusion and then reconsidering it and going through this process over and over. I don't sleep well anymore. I'm restless and if I do sleep I can't stop. I feel sick a lot of the time very dizzy and like I have to throw up okay t.m.i right sowrry but anyway. I got a lot of things to make right and I'm getting on it. So I'll start with fixing what happened with my friend and I. basicly i would have to say im a jealous angry emotional cow. that sums everything up huh. yeah so eh School is "fixin" to let out so yeah I'm ready for it. anyway ehkay this whole entry thing was for two of my friends Je (jewl aka the tora)and El (elani aka gir muffin ninja thing) they inspired me to type this and become a tad more active in the whole online journal thing. So why not? no one realy reads this crap so why not. I'll do it and there's really no hard I suppose. Okay I'm off so bye!
okay je and el there's the link so watch it if ya want.
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1152319F3efg2Yp?searchId=938068338697526174&rank=2