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i would never make fun of you! and your not alone, you have friends, im one of them. like i told you before, im always here if you wanna talk. you can pm me, call me, or I.M. me 3nodding i don't like seeing you upset and depressed. sad ok?

You don't get it do you? You just don't understand! Reality means so very little to me. You, who would attempt to bring back my faith and what would only bite back and hurt me; who do you think you are to try to cause such pain to me once more? You will silence yourselves until the three weeks pass. Then, and only then, will I be able to express my happiness once more on a full-scale level.

Patience is a virtue best expressed by those who wish time to move faster. And, oh, how I wish time would pass by faster so I may be done with school and with my corrupted reality. When I can finally lay back and relax, knowing everything is done and over, I shall be overcome with joy. Seeing the return, I shall be overcome with joy. Being able to live with my own rules and with my own self...With only the people who I choose to disturb me...those who I choose to have fun and play with...Then, I will be truly happy. Enough of your sickness and pain. Enough of whining and complaining. Enough of every thing that I have to sacrifice only to make you all feel oh so little much better about yourselves.

I do not need any of you. I do not require to be alongside you all for the rest of my days, tied into the knot that is your lies and deceit. I know you; those who are against me without your "own" representation. Those of you who have been manipulated into hating me; my very essence you disgust based upon your own selfish desire to keep friends.

I was once like you. I was one pathetic and weak, hoping that I would anger no one and wishing that I would be accepted. The SECOND my mentality changed and I became strong and willing to fight back; The very INSTANT that I represented a threat you breaking apart this tight little clique of friends, I was hated. I was despised because of someone's else's own passionate rage that burned ever so brightly against me.

Shut up, all of you. Your words and your stupid lies mean nothing to me. Those who care about me; who feel that I have a purpose in this world, I thank you. You do not know how much your trust means to me. However, those of you who would bring down your sword upon my neck; who would attempt ot break even further into my own serenity, You are the ones who Hell will devour, your mashed bodies twirling forever down a spiral of fire, lost in the waves and in the heavy torrent of blood; blood that YOU yourselves spilt upon this earth. I am sick of all of you. let me be a furry with my fellows in peace and just plain leave me the ******** alone.