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i really dont know what to call this entry. But really it seems it happened so fast but I know it was for the better. My relationship with her was always a rollercoaster and then it just started going down hill....faster and faster.
I did what I thought would be best for us, but i guess she didnt see it that way.
Next thing i know that night Im getting a call from her and she tells me she went to this guys house alone and had sex with him. She said she didnt enjoy it or whatever and that now we are even.
(I had internet gf's during our relationship, but i had nothing physical)

I really dont know what to think of her, I really didnt expect this from her especially when she told me she would never do anything like that to me.

So now I tell her friends to be there for her and comfort her, and that not to worry about me. I can take care of myself, I have for my whole life.

Right now Im just taking it day by day, slowly coming out of this depression i was in. I am seriously thinking about taking my friends advice and joining the army....to get put on the front lines cause I really have nothing else to seriously live for but im not going to rush into that and Im going to take some time to heal first, rebuild every friendship that i lost and maybe make some new ones to replace the ones lost to the year that I devoted myself to this girl.