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A poem I wrote for public speaking class

Nobodies

I am here, invisible to everyones eyes,
Waiting solemnly for a surprise.
My screams are silent, eyes are dead
In the agony of words i should have said,
Instead I choose to look away
For fear of ending up more out of place
as the moral and laurels i rose up upon
Crumble away in a flash, I am gone
Who am I? Nobody
As well you should be too,
Before shallowness and vanity take over you
For in this world of somebodies who try to belong
They will soon come to find themselves lost in the throng
Nobodies may smile and cry with the tide,
But we also may laugh while we're bleeding inside
And though we're invisible, the someone's still laugh
When a nobody falls to the ground with a crash
And a cry and a sigh, as suns and moons whisper by
Until a seed of thought plants itself: Why even try?
With the mocking they do, the jeers and the yells,
For No-ones to belong, we'd surely need hell
To feeze like their hearts, all cold as stone
making even groups of nobodies feel all alone
Sometime we can't sleep at night, as the sounds of their calls
Echo louder and crueler off of our inner walls
And so we begin to hum silent songs
To block out the someones, Drenched in the sins of their wrongs
And we pray, yes, we pray
Every night, every day
for when the mocking and laughter would please go away
And we could sit in the silence without being afraid
And we could wake up to the day and say HEY!
This is who I am
And I don't give a damn
About what you want me to do
I've finally stopped listening to you
Get the ******** off of me with your pokes and your prods
As some of you someones call " You're a freak!" '' No! a fraud!"
I'd still stand without complacency and quietly say
" I've finally refused to watch thing go your way
This is who I am, no more and no less
If you've got a problem that's your own ******** mess!"
And then i suppose i would leave in the silence i made
So thick and Frightening, my steps cut through like a blade
Because what could be said
When what's locked in your head
On your lips has been read
And you're finally fed
Up with the lies, up with the wrongs
With the anger and fear you wished could someday be gone
But mostly fed up with the hate, hate, hate, HATE!
And when emptiness inside was all you had to await.
Hate at yourself for not being like them
And constantly letting yourself feel condemned
At the hate for the somebodies, you can tell so it seems
How the torment and cruelty makes me just want to scream!
Fists clench tight as the nobody i am tries to be bold
I can be me and be someone once the truth has been told
Now I'll stop hiding from them and their stares
Because I've come to realize: Who really cares?
So now I'll be me and nobody else
I promise to stop hiding myself
And to all other nobodies just like me
Cast off your chains, be proud of yourself, be free