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As my years on Gaia passes by, I wonder about my place when it come down to my friends. I'm always behind on everything. I never engage in any serious relationships, and I always tend to avoid conflicts. All I ever wanted is to spend my days on Gaia laughing, talking and sharing with my friends but it seems I learned that you can't get everything you desire.

In the past, my friends were the people in a little community called Broadwalk. Me and Pinkieswear were great friends, and were regulars of the GCD. That was until her popularity come along, and I felt as if I was just left behind, though we did talk form time to time. She was the main reason I stayed within the GCD.... One day she left Gaia, and ceased to exist on the net. It was hard for me to see her leave, especially since so many users did not care whether she stayed or not. I felt outnumbered and forgotten when she left. Our friendship felt like a lie.

Broadwalk was disbanded, and we all seperated. I soon reunited with Kaz, and I think he is one of my closer friends that remained here until this day. Vicky was around too, though we did have some shares of minor conflicts.... I stayed within the tri-Ace thread, and met Syn. I could remember it like it was yesterday... I forced her to subscribe to the thread since I was kinda desperate for more members to be thread regulars. There is where I met Neo, who I had thought to be a girl with a huge ego.

Years later, Syn created a guild for us, though it was not active until Neo helped us give birth to activity and motivation to keep it running. Though we made quite a small group, I felt attached to this place. It was my new home on Gaia, and the members are like my online family. It's not a perfect family but family none the less.

Things soon grew quiet, and I did not seem to be aware of half the stuff that went on behind the scenes. Again, I felt like I was left behind again as if I had no special qualities to relate to anyone on, though I do sometimes... With the breaking of bonds now, I' afraid I' may walk the same path like I did before.

Real life is truly something... Somehow I barely feel like part of the story, since I'm just telling it... Sighs who knows?