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It was not the darkness that hurt me,
No...rather it was the light.
The light that saved others...
It's only hurt me.
People fear the darkness,
Run from it, they seek shelter in the light.
How pathetic...
Those worthless people...worthless.
I used to be like them.
There used to be a source of light,
Someone I felt comfortable with,
Someone who loved me.
Was it not that one person who was my light?
Me shelter away from the darkness?
The very same darkness that I now cling to?
Yes, they where my shelter...
My strength...
Now though, it's all gone.
All that's left is the darkness.

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Who are you really?
You tell me things,
You laugh with me,
But who are you really?
Do I know you..?
Do I know who you really are?
Have you come to torture me?
To take away everything from me,
Leave me to die like this?
Leave me to die alone like this!
You said that...
You'd be there for me...
Now you're gone.
You've left me alone...
Cold...
Bleeding...
And slowly...
I'm dieing without you.

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There's a reflection in the mirror
It stares at me,
Knowing everything about me.
Showing who I really am.
Behind the mask I put on,
To hide my sadness.
I feel so empty when I see my reflection.
Such emotions, joy, happiness...
What are they?
I know of madness and sadness
Yes those glorious emotions.
Those emotions that cause me to collapse
Crying and dieing on the inside.
That's the truth, who I really am...
I'm dead, I'm dead...death.
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Yep these are my latest poems. I know they are depressing and such yet, I feel such right now. I can't say I understand why since I have much to be joyful about. Perhaps it is because I will sixteen, yet there are many people who won't be there, or more like just one person whom I still miss. I guess some wounds don't heal. No, perhaps I just can't let go is the problem. Is it because I can't let go that I feel to depressed? In the end I feel as though I can only blame myself for my own sadness. Yes, that's all I can do.

~ Shadow