You know, everyone has a time where they feel like they can't take anymore. However, it seems as though I'm constantly pushing that point. I am so tired of it all. I'm tired of this world of ours, tired of the people in it. I'm so fet up with it all. I don't know why it is that people feel the need to be the way they are, say the things they say, push me to the edge and send me over it to where I can't deal with it anymore.
The pain I feel, day after day, and there seems to be one who can make it really fade away. But ironically enough, he is a part of the cause of it as well. Why is it that I am always forced to suffer, why is it that I am made to remain in a daily turmoil - pushing me to the edge. I can't deal with much more of it. Everything is tearing me up inside, sometimes it's worse than others. The only way I can seem to deal with anything is through hurting myself.
People are callous and I am fet up with those who see how far thay can push me until I snap. The anger, the hate I feel inside at times is nearly uncontrollable. Sometimes I am at a loss of what to do to stop from crossing that line of incoherant rage. People seem to hate me but I don't even know why. I don't understand it, I can't understand it. But I really don't care anymore. I don't believe in anything, I don't truly trust anyone. I don't like people, I hate the human race. I have been pushed to the edge far too many times, it becomes old after a period of time. It seems that I am constantly alone, and it is getting so tiresome. I am done with it all. I am on the edge, on the verge of having a mental breakdown. I can't deal with anything anymore, I need to get away from it all; but I can't. I'll have to try and deal with it all like I always have, alone.
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Karitara
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