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Self preservation and insecurity

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MarisaMorbid_XX
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 @ 03:40am

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	I'm worried about Jared... He posted a bulletin saying... "my worst dream has come true and befor i go on i know this has happened to people befor but never to me. My dad brought out the belt. Im all brused up. for those who i have told what i would do if this happened im debating it." I'm really scared he's gonna hurt himself......... Or worse.... I don't wanna lose one of my best friends. It would be like killing a part of me. One thing I know for sure is that if Jared is contemplating suicide it's a possibility that he's pull through with it.... This isn't the first time that Jared's thought about hurting himself and it scares me. I HATE DADS! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! There scary and ignorant and violent, and they always think that they're right no matter what the situation is. I HATE dads... They scare me. They're one of my biggest fears. I know it may seem silly, but if you met my dad you would know why. GAH! I really hope Jared dosen't do something to hurt himself... Now I know how people feel when I get suicidal (I haven't been suicidal in a really long time though) But I now know how people feel and I'll NEVER do it again... It makes me feel bad enough just thinking about how much someone being suicidal effects people and I'm sorry that I was ever like that and I'm sorry that I hurt people just because I was too much of an idiot to suck it up and be brave... </3 Misa

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"Why not stand up, pump your fists in the air, and scream like a maniac!"

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l( . Y . )l
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Commented on: Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 12:29am


	Try laughing... It always helped... I fell like s**t this morning because of my mom. 2 of my guy friend even saw me crying =/... but I kinda laugh about it and hit the wall =3 and now I'm all better. So I'm sure he'll be okay if he have someone to listen and make him laugh =3 Maybe he should get a girlfriend :]... You're the only reason I didn't kill myself today<3

Commented on: Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 02:46am


	The thing is... he does have a girlfriend... :/

MarisaMorbid_XX
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l( . Y . )l
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Commented on: Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 03:26am


	... well... then he need to learn to deal with it... I'm not coming out as offensive, but that's how I deal with my problems... Talk to a mirror =] That help me out a lot when I feel alone xD

Commented on: Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 03:42am


	Haha, the mirror? xD Well if you ever feel alone you can always call me you know <3

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l( . Y . )l
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Commented on: Wed Feb 20, 2008 @ 04:37am


	well lets see, I've been calling you almost everyday now right? :] so there's really no need to talk to a mirror<3 ...........the only time I did that was during the summer.. xp

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