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Once agian I've become depressed. I don't think I want to explain why though I know someone who knows the whole reason sort of and yeah. Though I'd prefer to keep the real world low key on gaia. Anywho I was thinking, why is it everything about people seems to...fake now and days. I mean everyone has basically become a wanna-be. Prep wanna-be's, goth-wannabe's, homosexual/bisexual, you get the idea right? I mean seriously.

First off people don't seem to realize one thing. There's a fine line between the light and the dark. Those who truely belong to the darkness are loners who went to the darkness to find safety and have no regrets. They've let themselves be consumed by the sadness and wear a mask to hide it around people. Those are dark people, those are truely dark people. Now when can you find someone like that now and days? I'm telling you it seems hard.

Okay overveiw of how I got depressed (sidenote I wasn't alone during this. If the person wishes to tell who they are they are welcome to otherwise yeah). So we where sitting outside and stared at the night sky. There where two gray clouds going across the sky that to me seemed to be like eyes. Eyes that stare deep into the humans past all masks we wear into what we really are. On the inside we are animals who strive on our basic instinct to be better then others, stronger, kill or be killed.

The night sky which watches me ever so closely
I stare up at the stars shinning so brightly
When is my star to shine on me?
Is there a star out there just for me?

Will the stars leave me just like everything else?
Am I to be all alone with these wonds of mine?
I lay in the darknesss cold and alone
Slowly bleeding and dieing

Is this death in it's truest form?
Is this what I was born for?
Just to die, cold and alone?
Where is my star, I want to see the light, just once

Yes that's something I thought of last night. I'ce changed it a lot really, actully it's nothing like the one I have in my mind but yeah. Any who...I guess that's really all for now.