I can't do it.
I can't be friends with him.
I can't look at him.
I can't sit on the bus in the same seat I sat with him.
I can't go anywhere I went with him.
It kills me.
I hurt him so much and I feel terrible about it.
I don't understand how he can forgive me.
I can't believe I did something so terrible.
I think I'm going to make my mom pick me up at school from now on...
I can't sit on that same bus with all those memories.
The old wounds he opens up are too much for my tiny brain and body to deal with.
I can't do it.
Even writing this makes me feel sick to my stomach.
I feel like I don't even deserve to be alive.
How could I do the same thing to him that happened to me?
I did the same thing.
I know how he feels.
I know how they both feel.
I've been in both situations.
I hate both situations.
I knew I should've never said yes to him.
I knew I should've NEVER let him do what he did to me.
I knew I should've never led him on like I did.
Why did I let him get that close.
I can't believe I even had to lie to cover up what we did.
For what reason?
It was stupid.
It was uncalled for.
It's not like we did anything that bad.
Whatever.
I just feel really bad for hurting him.
If I could go back in time and prevent one thing and one thing only...
I would go back to the day he came up to me and asked me "Wanna go out sometime this weekend?" and I would say no.
</3 Misa
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