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intro to something I'm writing

We live in an ever changing world of good and bad, wrongs and writes, but if in all that chaos you can find a moment where you are truly happy, hold onto it with all your might, you might not find such a one ever again.
I let mine go, I made stupid choices, and while I have still found a level of happiness, I still cry myself to sleep some nights when I think of how it could have all been different and how much I miss my friends. I would give anything just to hug them again.
I miss them all but rather than cling to the memories, to look at their pictures and feel my heart break, I got a chance to relive the story, as it should have been, if the universe, and if I, just tried a little harder, and made my happiness last.
But happiness like that comes with a price, and that price has to be paid. I was told in advance that there would be changes, and most are good and I would never have changes, but there are still nights when I lie awake and wonder if it would not have been better to cry myself to sleep than awake to the nightmares.