that kills you inside? and that feeling that something terrible is gonna happen or something is gonna happen all over again? Well I have that feeling.... and just from reading one little thing... Am I too high strung? Am I too paranoid? Am I too nice? Am I too easy to push around? Am I too forgiving? Am I stupid? Am I insane? Am I over-paranoid for analyzing EVERYTHING excessively? Am I making the wrong decisions? Am I a b***h? Do I thrive on revenge? Am I too gullible? All the questions I ask myself everyday... Of course there's other ones but there not as important to me right now, and they mostly consist of thoughts about self-image. I KNOW something bad is gonna happen. I can feel it, and it's going to be the devil's fault... But then again don't we all dance with the devil? Whether you survive that dance is up to you, but we all do it. I've danced with the devil more than once and I bet that I will sometime again soon. I think I'm insane... maybe it's just the fact that It's 3am and I'm upset, paranoid, and pissed... I don't know... I only act like this when I think to much. I only act like this when I'm upset and I over-think. I only act like this when somethings really bugging me. I only act like this when I know I'm going to dance with the devil. I'm not sure whether this is sanity or insanity... I think it's just because I'm tired,hungry, upset, pissed, and overly paranoid....
Just a little note... If anybody who reads this understands what I mean by "dancing with the devil" then you must know me AMAZINGLY well because I don't think ANYBODY will understand it, unless you can read my thoughts.
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