Okay.. i know im not perfect. But im not a complete screw up. Okay.. so i did throw away my best friend because i thought it would help me get the guy that i love because i figured i didnt talk enough about other things rather than my guy friends. But my assumption was wrong and i dont know what ill do now.. because he is the thing i miss the most about life nowadays. I always look at his myspace and bebo. I sign on msn wishing that i could see his name and talk to him. And on AIM, the one place that i can see if hes online, he doesnt speak to me. It hurts not being able to talk to him just because i miss him all that much and even though i thought i had eric in the palm of my hand, he can put his arm around me all the time and i wouldn't think much of it. He could talk to me and i would be off in another world. I love eric to death, but i miss jesse. I thought that i would get what i wanted out of the whole thing if i didnt talk to jesse to get to the one i love but instead i lost the one i love. I miss you jesse.
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