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If a person has multiple personality disorder, and each personality would miss you, does that count as more people?
*sigh* Ok, so I was trying to be funny.
Listen, I'm not religious, I don't believe or disbelieve in God, which makes me rather agnostic. What I do know is, that if God is real, he isn't the answer. He isn't even the question. The only thing people can do is focus on other people, how the world influences them, how they influence the world. As I told Chris last night, one of many is still one, still important. You're one person, Rekol, but you mean a good deal to me, and I know I'm not the only one.
I'm not going to tell you how to live your life, but please, I am requesting you don't end it any time soon. I believe in second chances. Heck, I believe in third chances, and fourth chances, and so on...But it doesn't always pertain to people getting more chances. Sometimes, you have to give the whole world another chance, and another chance. Life is a struggle, but there's something to be said for the people strong enough to live past their seventeenth birthday, ne?
Well, that's about all I can put into words at the moment. I would miss you, Rekol, but I don't want to. I don't want you leaving any time soon. But hey, that's just an opinion, right?

-Ryuu

dear rj:
hey baby... i had no idea ll of this was going on... i would miss you if you were to um..leave... but, i know i'm not the only on... josh, me, baby sister, mommy.. all of us... i don't want you to leave... i swear... i wish you would've told me this was going on... i had no idea... i understand at how you wanted to handle it all on your own but that's not going to help... a life without you is unimagionable... i love you and i mean it when i say it... i'm sorry your having these memories haunt you and i know for a fact that if i could, i would take them away and make sure they never bother you again! but i can't... i feel so helpless but thats alright. i knew things with your dad weren't going well but i didn't know that it was this bad... i'm sorry brenda's such a b***h.. if i could i would snatch you away so that you wouldn't ever have to deal with her or be there again... i had no idea either about the blades... *looks arm up and down scanning all the cuts and old scars* then again i have no room to talk so all i'm going to say to you is the same as it is with me..."i really wish you wouldn't." i can't stop you it's your choice.. i'm just surpised you didn't tell me about all this... did you wanna leave me clue less and not know whats going on? i'm not mad, or upset, just really really curious and you know how curious i can get. but oh well...
just remember that when it seems like no one else in the world loves or cares about you, i do. and i always will. ok? remember that. and if you forget for some odd reason i'm gonna march up there and kick your a** till you remember! lol
i love you always,
Jacky R. Sherwood heart
aka
Mina_Lnoth heart

Hey hun,

I know that I can only be here for you so much and for that I'm truly regretful. I know what its like somewhat to go through what you are.I'm just sorry you have to be at the a** end of such selfish people.You question how many people would really miss you if you were gone huh? Well you know what? I'd definately be on the list of top ten and probably number one. I start to worry about you more and more because each day I begin to see myself in you.I know what its like to sit in the middle of the floor slicing away at your wrists,crying because you feel the world has given up on you, to feel like there is no hope.One thing you have to realize is that there is hope.For you and everyone else out there.Right now there doesn't seem to be a brighter side for you huh? Well tell ya what, try and find it anyway.Not to long ago I lost my best friend in the world to suicide.People don't realize what a permanent thing it is.Once your gone there is no comming back from the dead.So please.....please, please,please.....don't go through with it. I know I live only a short few hours from you and might even know the least about you above all else here, but I feel as if I've known you forever.Its like having a best friend that I can only see occassionally. I don't really know what I'd do without you around but I know it'd be a very depressing life.Just hold on.For all thats it worth you have people who love and care.

dude.....
I care about you bro
Jacky does too
so does josh in his own way
yeah I know that doesn't do much good up there in North carolina where you can't be there for us to show it to you but....well....
I know we've had our...."fights"....but....you've almost always been nice to me.....you've always treated me like a brother.....
I wish I could tell you like I used to that you can't care too much....that that's a virtue that can be put to good use.....but I keep seeing what it has done to me so...
I'm not going to go on and on about how life is worth it....that god or whoever is up there is just testing us....seeing if we have what it takes....I'm floating more than anything right now........I really don't care very much for anyone....except for a few.....I've become aquaintance like polite to most now.....I'm tired of being hurt....I know you have been too
I wish I could be there....i wish I could bring Jacky with me....though she treats me like s**t I'de still like you to be happy so I'de take her with me to you if I could....Josh too cus I'm sure you miss him too....
I know someone loves me very much.....and I know you do to.....I think I love her....Tiffany that is......but I'm still so numb....I don't wanna feel anything.....just like you said...I want it to all go away.....unfortunately it doesn't work that way......I don't wanna trust myself to anyone else anymore.....I think you don't either....I don't know I'm just guessing...
I hope while you where down here I was as good a brother as you'de hoped from me.....you were for me.....even when no one else was......even when I'de yell and get pissed.....you still treated me in the end like a brother.....I just hope that I've aways done the same for you...