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Ok, well I really haven't been myself for the last 2-3 weeks. Ane body that realy know's me could tell you that, but anyway's I guess I'll start to explain one of the main things that has troubled me in the last few weeks... well... here it goes....

A couple of weeks agon all of my senior friends graduated, and that night one of them (His name is Rico) threw a graduation party. Well I was at a friends house when it started so I walked a few streets to get to it. When I walked in the door I set down my stuff and said hi to a few people as I was greated by mostly smiles and hi's and that kinda thing. Well I went and said congrats go Rico and said hi to his mom for a minute before I headed for the back door to the yard. Well my friend Brittany was sitting there and she just gave me this weird look and I didn't understand what I did wrong.

When I got outside I said hi to everyone in the back yard before going up to Bo (Her boyfriend, who is also a good friend of mine that just graduated.) I asked him if I did something to upset Brittany and he said that I should go ask her. Well I took a few more minutes in the backyard to get a few laughs from people and to chill out before going back inside. Well when I opened the door her and 2 females that I didn't recognize where sitting on opposite sides of her, feeling awkard I walked up and asked her if she was mad at me or something. She shook her head and said no, but then asked if she could talk to me for a minute alone. We walked out into the front yard and into the street where I leaned onto a friends car and she leaned against the car infront of me so we where facing eachother.

Once more I asked her if she was mad at me, just incase she didn't want to say so infront of other people. Again she said no as she shook her head. So I decided to ask her what was bother her, and she told me that she felt weird to be around her x boyfriend (me) and her new boyfriend (Bo) I nodded in understandment as I asked if she would rather me leave, and she said no... so I was confused for a moment. She then said how she still has feelings for me and I was the first person that had ever stolen her heart... which made me feel sorta bad as she told me this. She also said that she wanted to kiss me instead of Bo and that was bad.... then she made me feel sorta bad but also embaraced when she said 'Why do you have to be such a damn good kisser?' That got to me for a moment but I wouldn't let her come on to me. I said 'Well you can take this as good or bad news....' and I stopped for a moment as she nodded and waited for me to continue. 'Well, in a little over a week I will be living in North Carolina at my dads house.' She nodded once then said I can take some news of her the same way, good or bad. 'Well at the end of the summer I'm moving to Texas, my dad was re-assigned to a new base' (Incase I haven't told... she's military...)

Well I just nodded and we started to talk then I asked about if she was going to try and make the long distance relationship work. She said she doubted it would, because Bo was moving to Arkansas to his moms and she's used to being able to hold onto someone to cuddle with. I nodded as I said 'Yea, I'm used to that to...' We talked for a little while longer before I said I had to get back to the party, she sorta nodded as I went over to my best friend Chris (Some of you know him as Spykezilla here on gaia). Well Bo turned to me and started yelling about how I better get away from him before he kicks my a**. Well I've heard this threat before and Chris draged me to the side to tell me Bo thought me and Brittany where going to get back to gether. I was like 'What the ********' and said no and explained to Chris what happend. He shook his head and just said for me to go chill in the backyard for a while away from Bo.

When I got into the backyard again it was empty, excpet for my one of my other best friends named Kyle (He also graduated) and Kim. Kyle was on his back on the ground and Kim was sitting indian style as I approched and sat down as well. 'He doens't look so good.' I said to Kim as she laughed soflty. 'I think he drank to much' was her reply. I just shook my head as I looked down at him. See here's another complication to the night... me and Kyle have both gone out with Kim... and we both still like her. After about 5 minutes she asked if she could talk to me alone. Once more I said sure and we went across the street and sat down in the grass to talk. We sat and talked for a little while and she told me how she has feelings for this guy down in Georgia where she lives (She came back up to South Caronlina to her mom's for the summer), but she also said she still has feelings for me and Kyle and that she was confused.

Well... it was time for me to give more adive and try and stay out of the problem at the same time. 'Well just do what your hear tells you to Kimmie, I'm sure you'll figure it out.' Well after a little while she asked me if I wanted to go for a walk, I said sure but I had to tell some people I'll brb. Well when I came back outside she was halfway down the street and started to walk down the front lawn. Chris was telling someone to leave Kim be and when he saw me he said I'd go take care of it. (Damn, he's psycik! Yea... I know....the spellings wrong... well who gives a rats monkey! Well... that didn't make sence either... back to the story....)

I quickly ran down the street and easily caught up with her, I could see moisture ont he back of her hands and could tell that she had wiped away some tears from her eye's. 'Kimmie are you ok?' I asked in a soft voice and she smiled some and nodded yes, I knew better but I also knew she wouldn't tell me unless she realy wanted to. As we walked I got her to calm down and the next thing I knew I heard a vehicle's engine roaring up behind us. I turned around and the suv came to a stop, it was Zack (Yes, another senior who graduated). He told us to get in the ******** vehicle. (Kyle was in the passanger seat so I opened the back door for Kim to get in first, but when I went to jump up and get in Zack hit the gas... I fell back and barely caught myself from falling as Kyle yelled at him to stop and wait a minute. I jumped in and shut the door as Zach took us back to Rico's.

Apparenlty there had been a lot of arguments at the party... like 4-5... Rico was really upset and he was yelling at everyone for a few then as he calmed down he told everyone to get around him. He said his feelings about the night and how he probably shouldn't of let the guy's invite there gf's for obvious reasons, it had caused a lot of problems. He said he wishes he could fix that but he couldn't and he said how much he loved everyone and how he was gonna miss us all. As soon as that was over Bo was still staring at me like he wanted to hit me, and by this time my blood was boiling and I wanted to hit something or do something really bad. I went up to one of my friends who was about to leave in his car and I went to the passanger door and opend it 'Can you give me a ride home before I do something I'm gonna regret Matt?' I asked and he said hop in and he'd take me home.

When I got home I simply sighed and went inside, my aunt and uncle where supprised I was home already (I lived with them before I moved up there to my dad's house) I told them that the party went like Hell and explained a few of the things. They said I should go take a nice hot shower and go to bed and not to worry about it. So I did... I went to sleep and slept like a rock from 11pm to 1pm the next day.....

Well... thats just one of the things that happened to me lately that I can't get off my mind, I feel a little better now that I've put it down on something and expressed my feelings. *Kicks gaia* Yea... this is the second time I typed it because the first time gaia had an error and made me start all over... Well... thats all I have to say for now... bye everyone.
Rekol

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