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God damn.
I'm crying,
like the type of crying
where tears run down your neck and chest
but no noise
and I have no other purpose
and nothing else i can do.

Britney's been so down...
She hates that her parents don't let her ever do anything;
they are so strict.
She's about to seriously go crazy.
She started crying in school today.
If you know Britney,
you're probably thinking,
"holy s**t."
She does not cry.
She was so upset,
she was like,
******** it,
I'm just coming home with you.

She didn't end up doing that.
She did get really angry though,
the type of angry that scares the ******** out of me.

I am home and
I just got off the phone with her mother,
who called me
to ask what was wrong with Britney;
she wouldn't say a word to her mom.

Earlier today Britney told me that her mom hated me,
so I'm thinking,
s**t...
Tell her and piss off Britney?
or don't tell her and have her hate me?

I told her something, at least.
That Britney didn't like having to ask Shane for everything.

Her mom started saying that I needed to see things from her view-
she didn't want Britney to move back to her dad's, but Britney won't talk with her to work it out.
She also said that she knows if I am taken out of Britney's life,
Britney will probably try to kill herself again,
and she doesn't want to be put in a position where she has to wonder whether or not her daughter is going to try to commit suicide.
And then SHE started crying.
Asking me questions and s**t,
and I'm crying and I'm trying not to show it in my voice.
She said she'd "talk to me later."
I guess I should be expecting another call.

God damn.
I hate being a teenager.

crying