Today was a half day at school, which is nice, but I'm stuck at home. Whatever, there are so many problems that are greater than mine. Halloween was yesterday. I couldn't go trick or treating, maybe I'll go today, if meh friends ever pick me up. *growls* I'm so bored. *hits self* Don't complain, at least I'm not at school. But I miss Theater Production. Tommarow is another half day, and it is also the day we are doing our play! I'm so excited! I wrote it. *smiles* I feel special. Some people on gaia have no idea how to type.
Anyways, today I would like to talk about self injury and suicide. Why do people commit suicide? Is it because they are tired of hardships? Is that really the frame of mind you should be in? I have a friend, which I'm not going to say names, who's mom attempted suicide the past month. Why would she do it? I have no idea. But you know what I feel ashamed of? I take human life so...lightly. No, I don't wish for people to die, but when somebody does die, I don't usually mourn. When my own dog died, I didn't shed a tear. I think it's because death happens to everybody. We all will die and we can't escape it. You don't get anything out of suicide except a shortened life span. Is it a mental illness? Truthfully, I don't regret anything if I die right now. I've had a...decent life. Sure, it would be nice to live a little longer, but I can't control anything. And I'll tell you this...sometimes I want to jump off my roof, or slit my wrists, something in order to leave this world. But I don't. And the bliss moments that happen after those moments make me happy that I didn't go through with it.
Now to discuss self injury. Just because you self injure yourself, does NOT mean you are emo. Just to make that clear. Now, why do people cut themselves? Most people say because it let's out anger and sadness that's bottled up inside. Some people say because they did it once and now it has become an addiction. But I know some people who do it for attention. Sure, let them hurt themselves. But when it is your own friend who does it just because they feel like they need to fit in, it hurts to know that they don't understand that they already fit in. Sorry if that was worded weirdly. But really. Life is horrible, but is it really that horrible to worry people and self injure? I'm trying not to become too tempted.
I guess that's about it. Sorry if anything offends you, that really isn't my goal or wish. Remember...
-Maggie-
Anyways, today I would like to talk about self injury and suicide. Why do people commit suicide? Is it because they are tired of hardships? Is that really the frame of mind you should be in? I have a friend, which I'm not going to say names, who's mom attempted suicide the past month. Why would she do it? I have no idea. But you know what I feel ashamed of? I take human life so...lightly. No, I don't wish for people to die, but when somebody does die, I don't usually mourn. When my own dog died, I didn't shed a tear. I think it's because death happens to everybody. We all will die and we can't escape it. You don't get anything out of suicide except a shortened life span. Is it a mental illness? Truthfully, I don't regret anything if I die right now. I've had a...decent life. Sure, it would be nice to live a little longer, but I can't control anything. And I'll tell you this...sometimes I want to jump off my roof, or slit my wrists, something in order to leave this world. But I don't. And the bliss moments that happen after those moments make me happy that I didn't go through with it.
Now to discuss self injury. Just because you self injure yourself, does NOT mean you are emo. Just to make that clear. Now, why do people cut themselves? Most people say because it let's out anger and sadness that's bottled up inside. Some people say because they did it once and now it has become an addiction. But I know some people who do it for attention. Sure, let them hurt themselves. But when it is your own friend who does it just because they feel like they need to fit in, it hurts to know that they don't understand that they already fit in. Sorry if that was worded weirdly. But really. Life is horrible, but is it really that horrible to worry people and self injure? I'm trying not to become too tempted.
I guess that's about it. Sorry if anything offends you, that really isn't my goal or wish. Remember...
-Maggie-
