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Ever since I got pregnant everyone has been trying to tell me what to do, or how to act. The worst two people, when it comes to telling me what to do/how to act, is my mom and my mother in law. My mother in law knows neither I nor Myckel believe in god and yet constantly says god will get you through this and wants us to go to church. The thing that really gets me though is that she told me she wants Eden to go to church and believe, and it's like she's trying not giving me a choice in my own daughter's life. My mother is no better though, in that she is constantly telling me I don't have to listen to Myckel's mom, by going to church. I know I don't have to but I'm not going to ignore her or alienate her. Not to mention my mother in trying to help me just usually ends up making me feel like I'm not doing a good job of being a mom.
I mean I hate going to church, I always feel alienated and singled out. I always feel like the pastor is staring at me when he talks of sin and leading people away from god. I've always felt like that in churches, even before having Eden. I hate it, but I don't want to alienate his family.